wow really enjoyed the camp... the fellowship was fun... find that the ppl are more united after this camp... yup that includes my cg, nyp2... but i really hope that weibin will take up this resposiblities to grow again in God's presence and and receives the blessings from God. hope he will attend cg next wk.. i hope he knows that everybody in nyp2 wants him to return and serve God together. i'm really happy for darren... althought at times he still joke during teachings time and stuff like that... but he has been taking small steps each day towards maturity.. darren, i want to encourage you to learn and read more and apply these Words in your life. you will find real joy... pastor jeff has said this before.. happiness is the result/outcome of happenings that occur ard you. in another word, whether you are happy or not, it depends on situations. but real joy comes from the fruits of the Spirit as you serve and follow God everyday. once you have the joy, u wont be feeling lost or insecure. jiayou k! influence the ppl ard you in a positive way. back to the camp, the programme was abit packed... plus we tend to slp very late, ard 3am or so.. so i always ended up waking up late.. after the last programme which is the photo-taking, rushed home to update the student conference list and sent to zhen yan.. supposed to send her before 7pm. but i reached home at abt 7pm...hmmm i find that i still has this tendency to be late for appointments or completing tasks.. repent repent...

after this camp, i find that fulfiling the Great Commission is an impt vision for the churches as well as the believers. christmas is coming... nyp2, with strong convictions in our heart, is ready to break the goal of 10 ppl attending cg! just now we were busy msging each other for the confirmation of visitors for this wk matt cg event and also encouragements to each other for our sowing efforts. i find that this should be the spirit of nyp2! amen?! and i have set a personal goal of 3 sheeps by end of january! and you know wad? i really want to see yr 1 contacts coming to know Jesus from my diploma course (MB). coz i'm the only Hope guy from MB... hmm.. really need more faith in this area... during the worship at sun night, i teared... coz i sensed this strong compassion and burden for the ppl who had backslided... and throughout my spiritual path in Hope, i find that i'm lonely...most of the yr1 brothers are transferred from the high sch.. they alr have this bond between them.. and i find it difficult to communicate with them.. not only the brothers but also my current shepherd... i dont know whether he's reading this now.. i really find it hard to account to him abt my life and my problems. but i know he cares for me alot... i really thank God for him who had comforted me when i cried. plus the other nyp2 bros... the reason why i teared is partly because of ap... she had impacted my life when i was under her care. i enjoyed the shepherding and caregrp time with her and other nyp4 members at that time. she knows my weaknesses and encouraged me again and again thru sms or msn etc... after she left, i began to stumble abit.. i suddenly felt like a stranger in the nyp unit among the bros and sis. and at that time most of the bros i hanged ard are not really helping me.. because of my shallow faith at that time, i got influenced alot.. and i began to drift away more from God. thankfully ritchie came into my life and blessed me. i believe God has placed him in my life at that crucial period to help me get up on my feet again. i really appreciate all the advices he gave me and the limited times we can spend together.. yupz.. i'm more secure in God now.. so dont worry abt me =p.. after this camp i hope to impove my relationship with my shepherd and also my cg members so that we can work well together to hit our target goal..

end jan goals

1. shepherd of 3 sheeps (at least one from MB course)
   
2. get weibin back on the right track
   
3. help nyp2 to hit 10
   
4. impove my communication skills
   
5. read finish NT
   

today is my first day of attachment.. need to get some rest... oh ya.. i want to affirm giselle again here... you have done well in preparing the food for us! and thanx for ya care and concern. =) and jiahui too.. find that you have this sweet learning spirit... thanx for serving in this camp food committee too yup..

i'll read this post continuously everyday to remind me of my end-jan goals. encourage all my bros and sis-in-christ to meditate on your end-jan goals and fulfill it!