had been suffering from slight depression yesterday.. haha.. not to worry.. just a minor one.. I'm amazed how God put me back to the right path so quickly yesterday.. ya knoe.. i cried abit yesterday... but stopped shortly after i heard His voice.. it's so miraculous... i just couldnt help crying yesterday... oh well.... everythin seems to go wrong man.. i couldnt get results... not productive enough... and my fren just ignored me totally when i'm down.. sigh... he didnt even say a word.. ya he didnt discourage me but neither did he encourage me.. sigh...i guess that's just his personalities ba.. but i hate that expression on his face man... i felt so stress when supervisor asked us abt our results.. sigh. everytime he will say that i couldnt get any result with a real weird expression looking at me... wad's the prob man..? i couldnt shallow my pride to try to communicate with him.. instead i kept quiet and showed him my attitude... sigh.. i really need to change.. thanx God today i manage to put on a friendly smile.. and we r quite okie now lar... i realise i need to be more humble... God stilled my heart during my QT.. i'm able to think more clearly and adjust my heart... yea... thanx gis.. i'm okie.. i guess i have to keep on ignoring those msgs ba... haiz.. i wont be affected (it's another guy btw if ya knoe wad i'm writing).. i'm not turning back... =)

oh yah.. my mom complaining now again.. haiz.. just because i'm not coming home for dinner tml and thu... i feel like i'm living in a cage man... but she's stressed abt my finanical thing lar.. sigh.. i understand... i alr skip meals and etc(w/o her knowing if not she'll definately kill me haha).. but today have to contribute money to buy chocs for the docs and nurses.. now left like a few dollars for the remaining wk??