the doctors here are so nice.. they are approachable and down-to-earth.. everytime i see them they will smile back at me.. because of my attchment i have to interact with doctors almost everyday to get patient's blood sample.. they are really friendly.. maybe it's because of their professions.. they have to interact with their patients and stuff like that.. but i really want to learn from their positive attitude.. i still remember dr lim gave us boxes of CNY cookies a few wks back.. haha.. and he kept on calling me friend in the beginnings coz he doesnt know my name.. haha.. funny.. then today dr wong gave me a packet of apple juice and choc bar. hmm.. haha.. sometimes i have fear talking to them.. haha... i mean they are professionals.. and i'm just a attachment student.. btw dr lim is more than 1.8m.. real tall.. haha.. okie.. mm.. alot of stuffs happen today.. had a not-so-friendly conversation with my friend today.. after all he doesnt really understand my problems and burdens.. i find that ppl are normally selfish.. and sometimes life is like that.. take for example when i made a mistake, my friend would quickly made this sentence "i'm not going to be responsible for that. it's your business".. i mean i dont want you to be responsible of course!.. it's my mistake i would admit it myself.. but at least can give me some encouraging words mah.. it's like after hearing that you more or less have a feeling that when u have troubles, you wont trust that this friend will lend a listening ears, be there for you comfort you blah blah.. but i guess he wasnt intentional.. he apologised after that... in the past when i was still a young christian, my friends made comments on christianity.. its quite a sensitive topic.. i mean they dont really understand and make assumptions in their comments.. i was abit shaken of course.. that's why now i'm quite reserved when talking to them.. i cant share my problems with them.. our faith are different.. well.. but we still hang out occasionally.. talk abt our sch work projects..they are nice friends... but when it comes to personal struggles i feel that i have feel ppl to turn to except God and a few church buddies.. i think i've lost the feeling of true friendship..i dont know